Quadrant IV

When you take your own advice, strange things can happen.  Early this year I started the mammoth task of changing my life.  I had identified the need and what I was lacking and was poised to find out my true purpose when something truly monumental happened.

I started to really analyse my life from the outside.  Rather than looking inwards to how I was feeling, I studied my entire life and feelings as if I was watching someone else.  And in doing this rather odd thing, I discovered some really interesting things about myself.  And then I started to change.

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In my continuing journey of self discovery for the new year I have so far asked some tough questions and identified the need in my life that has started this whole she-bang.  And now for the hard part.  What exactly am I trying to achieve?

This is the big, deep, meaning of life question.  The ‘why am I here’ type of soul-searching that I have generally avoided in favour of purposeless living. 

Purposeless living has delivered me this far, granted, but I’m missing something, so perhaps it is a purpose.  And if I am going to continue on with the next steps, I really need to understand the general direction I am going.  I need to find that direction.

I did do okay with Step 2, Identifying the Need.  I’ve identified why I started this, but that need doesn’t give me the big picture idea of where I should be going.  I know why I started walking, but not where I want to end up.  Purposeless again, right?

So in order to work out where I’m going, I did what I tend to do in situations like this: research.  I’m not a religious person and in keeping with that (lack of) philosophy, I have avoided the traditional methods of determining what you are on the planet for.  I did check out a number of other people’s ideas (I’m not sure if Oprah actually counts as a religion yet?), but none of them really struck home with me.  So I’ve decided to go with something that may or may not provide the answers for me, but that I’ve been meaning to try for about two years now: Steve Pavlina’s method.

So I’ll get myself a quiet room, a computer and about 20 minutes (okay, I’m stubborn – probably 60 minutes) and see what I can come up with.

A couple of days ago, I sat down and asked myself some tough questions about my work/life balance and the amount of ‘stuff’ I was metaphorically carrying around with me. 

The next step in my ‘Change in 2008′ process involved identifying the need and while it had sounded great when I’d written the list of steps I was going to take, it didn’t really mean much on its own.  What need?  Need for change?  Need for value in my actions?  Need for more steps?

So I sat down again and really thought about what this ‘need’ was and realised that, for me, it was the need for change in my life and actually stemmed directly from the tough questions.  I need to change my time allocation for tasks. I need to refocus on what is really important.  And I need to get control of my brain and make it do what I really want when I want, rather than wasting valuable time.

So really, my ‘need’ boiled down to something very simple:

I need to fully engage; bring everything I have to the task at hand and keep focussed on the big picture.

Easy, right?  No, but mission accomplished; I have my need. Now onto sorting out what I’m trying to achieve.